Re-Answer From the Archives…

Daily writing prompt
When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?

I wanted to see what my answer was from last year, so I peeked back into the archives for a look see. I so enjoyed reading what I wrote last year, if I do say so myself! Since the answer to the prompt is still the same, I decided to give it another once through, for your reading pleasure.

May you enjoy the story… I did!

… The woman behind the counter smiled gently at me, as she cleaned her ear piercing tools. My heart was in my throat, it seemed. Getting my ears pierced was the most grown up thing I had ever done by my own choice.

My Nana had bought me a pair of earrings in the shape of bright red apples, but this time the jewelry wasn’t clip on… they were the real thing in the eyes of a 6 year old. My mother told me that I could get my ears done if I chose on my own… no hand holding or cajoling would be forthcoming.

I lay in bed awake the entire night before we embarked on this grown up lady stuff I wanted to take part in. I was terrified, of what I am not sure… but if they could poke me with a vaccination needle whenever they felt like it, and trade me a stupid sucker for my time, then I must be grown up enough to take the needle for a pair of gloriously beautiful red apple earrings. My mind was made up on the matter, so I just lay there and waited for the sun to come up.

I was so terrified of backing down and not being able to wear my new gift… it was in truth, the only thing that kept me on that swinging stool, there in that Bon Marche Department Store. I tucked my feet behind the bar beneath the seat, grabbed the sides of the stool with both hands in a military vice grip and tried to find my happy place.

I apparently had nothing to worry about, because it was over before it had begun! That fast… bang bang… All Done! They were kind enough to do both ears at the same moment, probably in case I backed out half way through the deal. I was so happy and proud of myself that I burst into tears, making the grown ups think I was in pain or shock. Not so!

I WAS A LADY!

So now I will explain the hilarious fall out from my Grown Up Anxiety Filled Sleepless Night… the reality of how most adults handle stress.

As exhausted as I was from no sleep and worry, over my piercing adventure, I never had a moment to catch some zzzzzz’s until that night after we got home. I was so tired that I could barely touch my dinner, and vaguely remember my mom walking me down the hallway to my bedroom……..

…. The rain fell steadily in the darkness, only illuminated by the distant street lamps, flickering occasionally. I was sitting in the passenger seat of our station wagon, while my parents were in a Parent/Teacher Conference up the street. As I waited for them to return, I saw movement not too far down the block, barely visible through the sheets of rain falling across the hood of the car.

I heard her before I saw her… this scary Witch that looked suspiciously like the lady off of the Wizard of Oz, if I am being completely honest. I could hear her laughing wickedly as she slowly materialized out of the darkness. Yup! It had to be that horrible woman who took Toto away from Dorothy. Don’t judge… I have a bucket list of different childhood memories that are triggered by different movies I had in my tiny mind.

Anyway, as the witch steadily approached my car, I frantically checked all the door locks and glanced up at the entrance of the school, hoping I would see my parents walking down the steps toward our car. Nope! As Jack Sparrow says, I was “all by me onesies!”

I crawled down under the dash where I could be hidden from view for the most part, except my feet could still be seen from the passenger door. I heard her approach the car, walk all the way around it dragging her super long witchy fingernails across the metal doors… witches always have super long curvy red nails if you needed a visual.

Then the witch stopped directly in front of the passenger side door where I was crouched down on the floor. All I could see was the tip of her hat, but I could hear what she was doing… she was picking the lock on my door with those awful fingernails. I watched in horror as the little metal door lock popped!

The next thing I knew, I was strapped onto a torture table, in the parking lot underneath the Sprouse Ritz Department Store, and that witch began to tickle me with those long fingernails…

It was torture! I began to laugh and could not stop! I fought to get away, but was strapped down so there was no escape for me… no way out! Except to wake up, but I had been so tired from the night before that it was like crawling through thick Jello to do anything. Never fear though, laughter is here… I laughed so hard that I rolled myself out of the top of our bunkbed and landed with a thump on the floor below. That did the trick!

Isn’t it funny the way we handle stress… often bottling our fears, stuffing them down and hiding them away from judging eyes. I realize that I was just a child and that the dream was probably just a way to release the tension I had been holding for several days over a perceived painful event. There was no real danger or trauma involved in ear piercing, but to a child trying to be a grown up, it most assuredly seemed like there might.

My take away from the whole affair was this… I would for sure think long and hard the next time I wanted to be a grown up!

From then to now, I still often find myself thinking long and hard every time I have to do grown up stuff… I know I should be fine with getting tickled all night in a parking lot, but this girl would rather leave the Witch back at Sprouse Reitz…

Here, don’t forget to grab a cookie…

Barnyard Business…

The mood around the barnyard this morning is rather sad, with a number of hugs and tissues being handed out among all the little ones. It’s literally a tearful and snotty mess in the barn!

Remember me telling you that story about how all the squirrels in Acorn Valley were gone? When I questioned those ravens about it, all they gave me was a very cryptic song that I was expected to decipher. Well, it turns out that due to problems within their own kingdom, the Acorn King and all his kingdom were forced to accept help from the Pinion Kingdom… you know, Lady Ophelia’s kin from the southern woods.

You may be asking how I came to know this information, and in truth, I didn’t even know that, until I arrived at the barn this morning. Let me explain…

Early this morning, a large armada of stern looking squirrels, all dressed in royal guardsman uniforms, arrived at our barn door. They bore the insignia of House Pinion upon the breast pocket of each of their uniforms, so I knew right away who they were! An older, and seemingly high ranking squirrel, stepped forward and handed me an official looking piece of paper. Awkwardly, I broke the tiny wax seal and opened the letter. As I did so, I noticed a very subdued and sorrowful looking Squagon standing between two heavily armed Squirrel Guards. I didn’t even need to read the contents of the letter to understand what was happening… I’d just been given orders to release him to his mother’s kin, House Pinion!

I knew this day might come, but quite honestly, I thought we’d have more time together… and I certainly didn’t expect him to be taken all the way south to his mother’s family. The suddenness of things was rather shocking, and all of the babes were a wreck… especially Squagon, the poor little thing!

Helplessly, we all just stood and watched as they marched him away, though I will tell you that I sent Brutus straight away, to secretly follow them all the way back to Pinion Valley. He’ll make sure that nothing bad happens to Squagon… at least nothing physical, anyway. The dragon will watch over young Squagon!

With Brutus watching over him, I do not fear for the little squirrel on his outsides. Though it pains me to think about it, sometimes dangers and injuries can come from within the heart, where one must rely upon themselves to overcome. He may be a young one, but I do know that Squagon is quite smart and has a stout heart!

For now, while Brutus does what he must do for Squagon’s sake, I too have much work to do, here in the barnyard. Teaching the babes how to cope with loss is not something I’m looking forward to doing, but it needs doing, none the less.

Now don’t worry too much, as Brutus has everything in hand with young Squagon… and we’ll be getting regular updates on how things are going for him with his kin. He is a very brave young squirrel, and I would be ashamed to let him see us blubbering on about the situation. We must be strong for Squagon, so that he knows his barnyard family will be here, when he returns.

I think I will use today’s classroom time for writing letters to Squagon, telling him how much everyone loves and misses him. Perhaps, with Brutus carrying notes back and forth between all of us, the distance will not seem so great. While I’m not certain of when, I am confident that we shall see Squagon again, soon.

While the squirrel might be bigger, older and a bit changed when he returns, he will forever be our tiny furry baby with funny wings, all wrapped up inside a walnut shell.

Uh Oh… we’re all out of tissues! I gotta go get more before Miss tilly starts blowing her nose on the sleeve of her dress… ewww!

Not Iffing Today…

Daily writing prompt
If you had a million dollars to give away, who would you give it to?

In a world where humans no longer have a real grasp on the true value of a dollar, thanks to credit cards and bank loans that one can never repay, the idea of what to do with a million dollars if I had it, seems absurd!

Through my head flies “lead a horse to water” or “old dog new tricks” or “where a man’s treasure is”, along with a larger list that would require a whole lot of cookies for everyone reading my response to the daily prompt. To be honest, I don’t feel like baking that many cookies today, so you’re all off the hook this time.

I didn’t mean that I wouldn’t bake you cookies, just not a plethora of them. If you aren’t sure of what a plethora is, just ask El Guapo… he had a plethora of Piñata’s, according to his right hand man, Jefe. Google the movie Three Amigos and you’ll see…

Dear God…

You are the Sun and I am a seed

You are the Moon and I am the firefly

You are the Gardener and I am the branch

You are the Healer and I am the broken

You are the Giver and I am that which is in need

You the Sculptor and I am that which can be molded.

Dear God,

I love it when someone writes words of love to me, and I just realized that You might really love it, as well. Though I know you are well aware of my feelings, I thought to write them down for you. You’ve shown me who you are, and it has forever changed me!

Now I can see me as You see me…

I am the seed that flourishes in Your garden. Were it not for You, there would be no Son for my soul! I am Your firefly in the night, carrying the light of Your truth throughout the darkness. Willingly, I choose to be Your branch… reaching for the heights, knowing that Your roots are firmly anchoring me to the ground! This child is so very broken, and yet… Your healing hands have made my scars beautiful!

I need You to carry me each day, giving me every breath I take, Lord. You’ve tirelessly worked to soften this lump of hardened clay, masterfully shaping me into the beautiful creature that I am… the way You see me! God, You are all that I want, all that I need, and the one who carries me home to the place You’ve prepared for me.

I love you so very much and thought it was only right that I make mention of it… I mean, nobody should have to assume that someone loves them. Sometimes it’s really important to say a thing out loud, to let another feel the truth of your words. I hope you have a wonderful day, and remember… this girl loves you so!

If you want to write me back, I’ll look for your letter within the book You left for me. It’s just there, resting next to the tree that You planted in my Lobby.

Love Toni

The World is My Oyster…

Daily writing prompt
What’s something you would attempt if you were guaranteed not to fail.

While I have no specific list of things off the top of my head that need attempting, I’m confident that if God asks it, it shall be done! If I am walking in faithful obedience to my heavenly Father, my Creator, and King… failure is not in the mix!

Things may not look like we sometimes think they should, and often we must step into a thing with far less ability than we have within us… but, God does not give us a task without providing His strength and skill to complete that which He has asked… so, I’m covered!

Just to put my bible where my mouth is:

Ephesians 3:20-21: God can do anything, working within us through his Spirit. 

Proverbs 3:5-6: Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and he will make your paths straight. 

Colossians 3:17: Do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father. 

Jeremiah 29:11: The Lord has plans for you to prosper and give you hope and a future. 

1 John 4: If we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. 

Other Bible verses about God include: Psalm 16:2, Psalm 34:8-10, Psalm 23:6, Psalm 65:11, and Psalm 107:8-9. 

Here’s some coffee, tea, cookies…

Enjoy them while you’re reading.

Wednesday Words…

Eustace is downstairs, working out in the motel’s gym. He’s attempting to encourage me to come try it out. Well, if the camel can do it… then, I can too!

I shall courageously go forth into treadmill land vs. trail walks.

When in Rome…

Unforgettable Goals…

After going back and reading my response from last year, the only thing that I would add to my answer this year is this:

I did indeed finish that second book… you know, the fantasy/fiction story that I went on and on about. From that story was born another, so I now have a new personal goal marked on my mental chalk board… Volume II!

Oh yeah, don’t forget your cookie…

Cookies…

I wrote a little ditty that I thought was quite witty

But once I read my writing, it appeared to be less than exciting…

So I decided just to move on and come up with a whole different song

It’s about how I get you to lookie, by always offering each of you a cookie…

I start by speaking my mind

About answers the prompt seeks to find

It’s only right you should know how I feel

This girl just likes keepin things real…

If my words make you feel whiney

or if a bruise appears on your hiney

Just remember everyone writes with their own letters

And,

Take your cookie so you’ll start feeling better!

Eye of the Beholder…

Daily writing prompt
Who are your favorite artists?

The beautiful thing about artists… they come in all shapes, forms and sizes.

Depending on the person who is viewing all the differing genre’s to pick from, there are a myriad of possible answers… possible artists!

I, myself, have a mishmosh of different artists that I consider my favorites.

Though I can appreciate the beauty in paintings and sculptures, they’ve never really drawn me toward those genre’s, as far as picking someone with a particularly good skill! That’s not to say that I don’t think there are some amazing painters and sculptors, I just wouldn’t know the first thing about picking one out above the others.

I would surmise that in terms of picking out favorite anything’s, most people go with what they know. What I know about myself is that I love reading, writing, music and nature… so we will run with that for today’s prompt answer.

In movies, I love Jennifer Garner, Henry Cavell, Robert Duvall, Tommy Lee Jones, Vigo Mortenson, Julie Andrews… oh, and the list goes on and on, my friends!

In the category of reading, I love C.S. Lewis, Brian Jacques, Rita Mae Brown, Iris Johansen, Tolkien, Rawlings, Judy Bloom… ya, there’s just too many to call up, at the moment.

Now, in terms of writing, there’s Willow, David, Mangus, I.V. Greco, Fibrecraft Grannie, Lou, Cate, Juanita, Banana Cat, Fandango, Willie, Edward, Ophelia, Kevin, and so many others that I don’t have the time to sing their praises… partly, because I don’t know everyone’s actual name.

As far as music goes, if you think you’re going to get an answer for this category, you shall be sadly disappointed! There is simply far to much talent out there for me to limit my favorites to less than probably 40 or 50 artists… and that list changes with each passing year. Some artists will be getting sweeter with time and age, while new talent will be rising up through the masses.

Just sayin…

Here, have a cookie…

These are some of my favorites!

Monday Messages…

Well, things took an interesting turn this morning, even before we’d gotten out of bed.

You know those things that sit on the bedside table in your hotel rooms? Those boxes with buttons and lights on them, and a weird microphone thingie with a cord attached? Well, I was awakened by a loud buzzing coming out of the box and the little red light was flashing. I picked up the microphone thingie, only to hear the sound of a woman speaking out of it.

Politely, she informed me that we needed to please move into another room… in another building… on the other side of the facility… before noon! While we don’t have much, we do have things that have to be repacked and moved back out to the car, and then back up another flight of stairs to the other room. The zinger, for us was, my husband needed to leave for classes within the next hour… so noon was just a fantasy.

I had all these delusions of grandeur about starting back to producing some good content for everyone, but that was a pipe dream. Oh well! There’s always tomorrow…

…Tomorrow, tomorrow… it’s only a day away…

Wait, what were we talking about?

Oh yeah, moving to another room. Oddly enough, there were some nice trade offs, in terms of having to move… again!

While I’ve lost the ottoman with wheels that slides across the floor, and the nice lap tray that comes with it, this room comes with a toaster. I’d bought all the supplies to make egg McMuffins when our adventure first began, only to find that our room didn’t come with a toaster. When I discovered one in the new room, it felt like we’d just one the lottery… well, more like a really nice door prize!

Speaking of winning the lottery, I bet my two house plants feel like they’ve certainly scored big time! Each one gets her own window to soak up the morning light. They must feel like they were born in a cave, but have now been delivered to the promise land.

Also, the laundry room and gym are now right next door, so it’s much more doable for me to carry laundry there, compared to back and forth across the entire parking lot.

To be honest, aside from disrupting my morning slightly, it was such a small inconvenience when one looks at the grand scheme of things. This was nothin! I got a brisk workout, and got a whole new clean motel room… lol!

The fact that other people keep cleaning for me, as well as laundering all our towels and bedding and taking out our garbage… is giving this girl a princess complex!

Is that a bad thing? Really… is it?