Matters of The Heart…

Episode 3                                  Skimming…

Some of my earliest childhood memories come from life on the farm.  All of the good ones that stuck to the walls of my heart, were the ones with my mother, and often in the garden or within the kitchen.  One particular memory arose this morning, as I lay in the darkness just before dawn, leaving me a tad perplexed, as to its purpose.  I’m still not fully certain I’ve grasped all of its meaning, but we shall roll forward anyway, as I tend to do with things God asks of me… sometimes we never see a thing til long afterward, and sometimes never!  I try not to ask God about his purpose too much, mostly because I wish to focus on being obedient in a task, regardless of whether or not further details might be forthcoming.  So with this in mind, I will simply tell you about the memory, and we can go from there.

One of my responsibilities, as the tiny little thing that I was, involved taking a large measuring cup and scooping all of the rich cream from off the top of the milk jar for my mother, each morning.  We kept the fresh milk inside a large glass jar, with a piece of foil for the lid, held in place with a rubber band.  Once the cream settled at the top, my mother would then pull the jar out of the refrigerator, set it on the counter, and stand me upon a stool beside it.  My mother busied herself at the sink, while I slowly and meticulously scooped the creamy liquid into a separate container.  I knew it would soon be transformed into sweet butter and other yummy things, making my mouth water, along with setting my tummy to growling.    

That was it… just a brief vision of skimming cream off the top of a mason jar of milk in my mamma’s kitchen, some 50 odd years ago.  Strange, isn’t it, how the mind works?

At first, I didn’t even understand what the memory had to do with anything at that moment, as I was lying there in the dark pondering what I should write for today’s episode on Matters of The Heart.  Then, in an instant, I was reminded of an article I posted not two days ago, I think.  Remember the other day, I wrote about boxes, and how we often use them to navigate our thoughts, frequently needing to sort them in one form or another?  Well, it dawned on me that if we sort things in our brain, we most probably have those boxes stored somewhere within the corridors of our hearts, which is where I was headed in the first place! 

But, what on earth does skimming have to do with sorting, you might be wondering?  Well, if we sort things that our mind stores within our heart, or even sort things from within our heart to store in our mind, it isn’t such a great leap of thought to consider that we also might have picked up a particular habit of existence… the skimming over of the things we keep stored in our heart, often taking up too much of our closet space. 

This habit starts when we are very young, from birth, in fact!  We learn a thing, and continue on from there, growing, learning and developing into who we are as adults.  Would you agree that none of us fully relive the memory of learning how to suckle from the breast each morning.  We learned it, grew from it, were weaned of it, and now just skim the surface of its relevance in our existence.

Skimming, as with anything else, is neither good nor evil, in and of itself.  Often, we use this skill to review a thing, or glean a piece of information needed for a particular task, without having to go through it in detail… it’s a time saver! 

The problem occurs when one attempts to skim over a thing they’ve never before read, or even make the assumption that they only need to see a portion, as they’re sure they remember the rest.  In terms of the corridors of the heart, all those boxes we keep stored and tucked away in our closets, begin to break down from a lack of sorting, organizing, and cleaning.  From there, many of the things missed during the skimming process, now begin to spill out into our corridors.  I don’t know about any of you, but God walks those corridors beside me always, so even if I don’t want to take notice of that which I am now tripping over as we walk… He does!

While we might fear God kicking our boxes around,  demanding that we clean up our dirty bits that have fallen out of their hidey holes, this couldn’t be further from the truth.  As a child that has been covered by the blood of the risen son of God, my creator only sees that which his son died to pay for!  While God sees all of what is within my heart, He only focuses on what has been washed white as the purest snow… that’s me, right here, right now.  Before you start thinking that this means we can leave our hearts corridors a cluttered mess, my hope is that we might want to stop skimming over things that are of eternal importance, and clean up our corridors as that of a bride preparing herself for the Groom. 

While it might be acceptable to put all of our unmentionables and dirty bits away from the guests we’ve just invited into our home for Sunday dinner, as I’m sure their observant eyes will be skimming … it’s not healthy, in the least, to do this with God.  The only thing one might accomplish by this bad habit, is never having a clean enough corridor for God to fill with the gifts He wants to place there!

What does this mean for me, personally?  I am learning to fully read the scriptures before me, taking the time to search for what God has tucked within its pages, instead of skimming over what I assume isn’t needed.  I’m using my new efforts of NOT skimming, by more carefully sorting through my boxes and discarding that which God no longer recognizes.  He sees all that is in my heart, and He stays anyway!  So, I wish to make the rooms and corridors of my heart as inviting as possible for He who dwells there…

Until next time, Hugs

Oh, Maurgarite…

Oh Maurgarite, sweet Maurgarite

You’re such a tiny thing

Not many ever see you

But, you can surely sing…

Across the waves of air

Your sweet melody begins to flow

Making every part of your tiny body

Take on a beautiful glow…

Oh Maurgarite, sweet Maurgarite

You only appear in the night

Singing musical words of healing,

That come from a place beyond sight…

A true blessing you are,

Oh sweet Maurgarite

Your music heals sorrow from dreams…

With delicate tunes,

you grab hold of sad things

Then you turn them to stars, and moonbeams.

Monday Messages…

I basically copied and pasted last years Monday Message in here, this morning. Why? Because nobody participated last time… and it was a really good idea, that’s why!

I’m serious, guys and gals… come on, pretty please…for me? I think this could be really fun, and let’s face it, I think we all need something bright to focus on right now. Wouldn’t you agree?

So, here goes… when at first you don’t succeed, try try again (or so I’ve heard):

Well… November is well upon us, and I am setting the stage for our upcoming events. I mentioned before that I wanted to do a Virtual Holiday and I am bringing it up again. I am giving everyone until Thanksgiving to come up with a Christmas Wish List for themselves and put it in the comments anywhere on my site, that is, if you wish to participate.

Anyone wishing to participate can simply use their Christmas Day Post to reveal what they got peeps from those lists… your post is yours so you can present your gifts anyway you wish. It is virtual so the sky is the limit! I thought it would be so beautiful to have the Reader covered with gifts and sharing all across WordPress. Be there or Be SQUARE!

Monday Hugs to everybody!!!!!!

Nugget…

Who are you, my tiny one? 

Where, oh where have you come from?

I noticed you when I awoke this morning.

You just sat there, quietly staring at me from my bedside table.

Why do you look at me the way you do?

What do you see of me that I cannot?

There you are, whenever my heart feels sorrow.

You sit watching me, ever so closely.

What are you looking to find?

What is it that you seek?

Do my features change, when I feel sorrow?

Does my face reveal my emotions, when they become stormy?

Why don’t you become fearful of me?

Why do you not turn away, or disappear?

You simply wait there, watching my eyes.

What are you searching for?

You always climb upon my outstretched hand.

I can put you on my shoulder and you stay.

If I set you beside me, you lean closer.

Why do you do that?

What is it you want from me, when you do that?

You never say anything out loud.

Why do I still feel better when you’re nearby?

I know you smell like cotton candy.

How do you do that?

When I start to feel better, you smell like hot chocolate.

Are you for real, or just a dream?

I think you have been following me for some time now.

How do you never get lost?

When I feel sorrow, can you sense it?

Do you have to travel far to find me?

I don’t think you go far, at all!

Maybe you just live in the nightstand.

Just there, beside my bed.

I’m ok with it, of course.

In fact, I’d prefer that you stay.

Monday’s Candy Huddle…

Trick or Treating is very near

The time has almost come

That game of candy retrieval…

There’s still so much to be done!

Some Dentists smile

While others are cringing

Wallets are straining…

as bellies are binging!

Parents prepare for a night to remember

yet, others plan on turning it into a bender

Children in costumes, whether bought or hand-made…

Candy hunting parties to form, retrieval plans to be laid!

Words of warning

to all those first timers

Too much sugar left out…

Results in tummy aches and whiners!

It was an iffy ending, but at least I didn’t fully lose my train of thought on this one.

I’m no quitter!

Barnyard Business…

I know that we were all hoping for a letter from Squagon today, but the Pinion King didn’t give us the OK on passing notes back and forth, til late last night.

So, guess what all the babe’s are doing, right now? You guessed correctly, if you said that they were probably all busily writing letters…

The young messenger sent from Pinion Valley was quite respectful and friendly, confiding that he was becoming great friends with the young prince. Apparently, Squagon is also hard at work, putting together his own letter…

Brutus has been given clearance to pick up and drop off all the letters each Friday, beginning tonight… and only under the deepest cover of darkness. I fully understand the king’s reasonings for this rule, as we’ve no desire to spread mass panic among the inhabitants of Pinion Valley, with an enormous dragon floating over their heads…

I can’t chat for too long, as I hear Boomer calling for help with his letters. I really need to be on deck for these first messages, ensuring I see bright and happy faces among the babes once they’ve completed their notes… they’ve been missing their friend, so.

Oh, before I go, I’ve made some good progress with my study of our Twilight Dreamers… and Beatrice introduced me to her three daughters.

For now, all that I can tell you is that while they might appear to look somewhat like their mother, they are each quite individual and unique in their own ways…

It’s been a bit difficult to learn much about Ishah, as of yet, due to the fact that I fall asleep almost as soon as I sit down near her… she just makes me feel so peaceful that I loose track of any thoughts, and my mind drifts off… like floating down a lazy river.

Now, Awshah is the polar opposite of her older sister, being so incredibly bubbly and joyful! She hardly holds still, and I’ve yet to slow her down enough to understand what she is saying, or singing… because that’s mostly what she loves to do.

Oh my goodness! Oodah might be tiny, but she is the softest and snuggliest little flying bean! We all keep taking turns holding her, and she never seems to tire of the constant hugs. She leaves you feeling like you’ve just been wrapped in a warm blanket on a cold morning… and then handed the most delicious cup of warm cocoa you’ve ever had! Personally, I think I would trade my favorite comforter for an Oodah, if I could.

Anyway, that’s as far as I’ve gotten so far… well, as much as I’ve time to share with everyone. Besides, I’ve spent longer than I’d planned, as it is… and now Tilly is beginning to call for me, along with Boomer. What I wouldn’t trade for a patience blanket! There’s still more dreamers left to meet, so there’s still hope…

Ta Ta, for now…

Tuesday Tinkering…

As I like to keep the pictures of our Barnyard Babes always fresh, once again, I grabbed my handy dandy picture taker (compliments of the AI generator).

It was a bit of a struggle at first, as the babe’s haven’t been in the best of moods, lately.

Fortunately, I think the activity lifted their spirits some, so there’s that!

I’m glad to say that we got it done, the babe’s and I, and now all we need to do is sort through the lot, picking out our favorite shots!

While I’ve left the final decision to Miss Tilly and Brutus, it won’t do any harm if I share my photo’s with you folks… just for fun. Who knows how long it will take for the lot of them to decide on things, and I don’t feel like making everyone wait.

I realize that you might have noticed some changes in the babe’s appearances, since the last set of pictures were taken. Try to keep in mind, sometimes sorrow changes how one appears to others… at times, hurt can seem invisible to most, often going unnoticed! Well… I noticed! That would be why I thought to make mention of it today, so that you wouldn’t be overly concerned about the obvious sorrow that clings to the edges of the photos.

No matter what I tried, Tilly never did smile for the camera… so, I finally quit fussing over the poor thing. I can assure you that Brutus is watching over her, carefully! The tiny mouse has held a special place in the dragon’s heart, ever since she came to be with us in the barn.

Since we’ve all been watching these tiny one’s for so long, I’m fairly certain everybody will see how small both Dinky and Boomer have become. Dinky is normally small, but she’s been so blue since Squagon left that her brother won’t leave her side. In a panic, Boomer shrank himself down to her size… and now he refuses to return to his normal size, until after his sister’s color improves! I’ve been letting them both sleep in my office, on top of the slippers that I keep under my desk. Oddly, it has been helping them sleep a little bit better.

While Lilly seems to be taking things in stride, I’ve noticed that she spends a lot more time alone, writing page after page in her little personal Journal that I bought for her, earlier this summer. She smiled for my camera, but you can tell that her heart wasn’t really in it! Still, she participated in things and by the end of the day, was a little more chatty with the rest of us.

In honesty, I’m not sure that Awzee Clawzee has any clue of what’s been going on! No matter what I ever do or say to the little guy, the only response I get out of him is “Whoooo?” Oh well, what he doesn’t understand should hopefully not hurt him, though I will still keep an eye on the little fluffbucket… just in case.

Sorry I took so long with all my photo disclaimers, but I just thought you’d want to know how the babe’s were feeling, what with the absence of our nutty little flyer, of late.

F.Y.I., we might be getting our first mail exchange this weekend, if the Pinion King approves of our correspondence with Squagon. I will be sure to let you know if we get mail.

Ta Ta for now…

Barnyard Business…

The mood around the barnyard has been rather sad, as of late, due to the sudden departure of Squagon. Earlier this week, as I sat studying in my office, a thought occurred to me, regarding our guests within the rafters.

Correct me if I’m wrong, but I believe that the arrival of our Twilight Dreamers, as I like to call them, occurred suspiciously around the time of Squagon’s kin disappearing from Acorn Valley!

Right about the time that I sent Brutus to start searching for them, young Squagon began having bad dreams, often waking in tears. The tiny squirrel’s nightmares were the reason I’d gone and sought answers from the Holy Rollin Ravens, if you recall the musical and cryptic song they offered up.

There were a number of nights that I simply slept in the barn, as the squirrel’s night fears began to spread like a sickness through the barn, causing quite a disturbance among the rest of the babe’s. No one was getting much sleep, including myself, what with all the crying and asking for a juice cup!

It seems to me, like, right about that time, we discovered our little guests appearing up in the barn’s rafters. Oddly, as soon as they showed up in our midst… the nightmare’s of each babe, began to subside and fade away. All that is, except for young Squagon, who still continued to suffer within his little dreams, though not as badly as before.

Anyway, I’m still digging into my memories of that time, to seek a number of answers that are yet missing, regarding the connection between Squagon and our little dreamers. Nothing worth knowing is ever that easy, so I’m still studying.

When I say studying, what I really mean is observing. I know little about these small flying creatures, but one of the first discoveries was their sleep schedule…

Why do you think I’ve begun calling them TWILIGHT dreamers? Yup! They are nocturnal, or awake during our sleep time, if that helps. What this means for me… a great deal more coffee than usual, that’s for sure!

I’ve set myself a schedule of observing their activities for several hours each night, while the babe’s are all dreaming… and yes, that’s where I chose the Dreamer portion of describing our guests. Early on in their stay with us, I noticed that these little things are the most active during the time when the babe’s are sleeping.

The strange little creatures spend much of their wakeful hours, busily flying silently overhead of my little ones sleeping hidey holes. What are they doing, you might be wondering? Well, I was wondering the same thing, so I camped myself in the corner of the barn for an entire night, just watching and listening.

Guess what these little things do all night? While they flit to and fro across the barn, occasionally hovering over one babe or another, these little dreamers are singing softly, sometimes even praying tiny little prayers of comfort and rest. In case you were wondering, they are rather quiet, even when they are singing.

I had to put ear phones in and listen through a high powered recording device, just to hear them.

I’ve still so many unanswered questions, as I’m sure you do too, but only time and continued studying will truly uncover all there is to learn. What I can tell you is that I’ve begun getting to know one of these little night flyers. She caught my eye, right from the beginning! I compare her to popcorn, because everyone knows how popcorn in the microwave can make the whole room smell yummy! That is Beatrice!

I’m still getting more familiar with my new friend, so you’ll have to wait until next week to learn more of her, along with her kin. I think that I may have struck gold with Beatrice, as I think she may be the eldest, and possibly the most knowledgeable of the bunch!

While I will be sharing everything I discover, if you have any suggestions or first impressions about all this, I welcome the help!

Ta Ta, for now…

Tuesday Tinkering…

So, remember how I told you that my brain doors blew open yesterday, while I was taking my trail walk?

I spent the rest of the afternoon, and then even more hours this morning, doing research. I began digging deeper into the story behind our bat thingies that are flying around in the barn. Remember them?

It turns out that there is an entire community of them, roosting in our rafters. When I discovered this… I was inspired!

One by one, each of their little faces and personalities began appear. Quickly, they found their way out of my brain pan, and all the way onto the page, so to speak.

I’ll introduce them to you in the order that I discovered them. Keep in mind that while being cute and adorable, each one of these creatures carries something very valuable within their tiny little frames.

For today, we will simply make introductions, so as to give each of you a chance to make your own initial impressions, without my intrusive input… there will be time for that later.

From first to last, there are ten…

We begin with,

Mother of,

And,

Then there’s,

and her little one,

Next we have,

and his little brother,

Followed by,

and her orphaned cousin,

Tune in next week, as we learn their story, their purpose and the gift carried within each of them.

*P.S. No spoilers will be forthcoming, so don’t even try. As they say, all good things come to those who wait…

Lizards In the Loft?

At least that’s what Tilly calls them… Flying Lizards!

As to what these little guys actually are, and where they came from, I’m at a complete loss… which is saying a lot about how strange they seem.

Whatever they are, somehow they’ve managed to create a little encampment of sorts, inside our barn’s back wall. There was a loose piece of roofing material that I spied earlier this year, but I’ve yet to have the time to repair it. They must have crawled in through the opening, thought they’d reached the promise land and simply set up shop!

Aside from Miss Tilly being up in arms about rules, hygiene and sleeping under the same roof with a band of wild somethings… the rest of the babes seem rather tickled with our new tenants! Boomer keeps trying to pick them up and pet them, while Lilly is riding them like they’re small horses.

Don’t ask me what I’m going to do with them all… I have no idea! But, I can’t just kick them out, what with the cooler months ahead.

Until I’ve had some time to investigate things and figure out what to do about it all, there doesn’t seem to be any reason to fuss at them, just yet.

For now, I think this calls for some gentle grace for that which I do not yet understand. I always did like a good mystery and now I’ve had one fly in through my barn roof!

I shall get right to the bottom of things and let you know what I find out… wish me luck!

Oh, and if any of you have seen these little guys before, I would love your input.