Do You Remember…

Melancholy Girl…

Part 2 of 3 …

Remember me talking about the differences between my twin pugs Harley and Busa?  Here is the point in time where the tale between two brothers, comes to an end… but NOT a sad one, so no panicking…

While the differences between the twins, seemed minor for a number of years, as the boys matured, the disputes over mom began to erode the love they had for each other.  We could tell that the boys were becoming more unhappy as time moved forward, so when a little neighbor girl fell in love with Busa, we knew!  Those two became more inseparable with each day, and Busa even went for multiple sleepovers.  We eventually went to the family and gifted Busa to the child.  Both the little girl and the dog were so happy, it never even made me overly sad to let him go… honestly, I was relieved to see him become happy, finally.

Harley became a different dog after that, as well, relaxing for the first time in his little life.  Not long after, we made the decision to go on the road.  My husband bought a Semi and began a trucking business.  Yes folks, I am a Bonafede Nagavator… I have a hat to prove it!

  The best thing about that Freightliner, was the little window down at my passenger side door… the perfect vantage for Harley!  He thrived in the new digs, getting to go wherever we went.  When we would get out to fuel up, he would jump into the driver seat and stand on the horn, beeping at us until we would wave at him.  Other drivers that walked by would laugh and wave at him too, just to see if he would do it again.  Other times, we were not very appreciated in the truck lot, as Harley would lay on the horn for nearly the entirety of our shower/laundry time inside the Truck Stop. 

There was also the issue with the sneeze marks all over the driver side window, which my husband was none too happy about.  Pugs have a thing for sneezing … when they are happy, sad, or offended… take your pick.  But the tradeoff was well worth it!  Harley left an impression wherever we went.  We lived this way for almost 5 years, only taking time off for family affairs, and so on.  He was such a good dog, and everyone loved him, though sometimes he left something behind, not so pleasant.

Once, when we stayed with my in-laws, there was a bit of an incident!  Harley was never allowed on the first floor of the home, so he always, obediently, stayed right at the top of the stairs; careful not to enter the forbidden zone.  He would always do this during the whole visit like such a good boy, except once!  Christmas of 08…  It was late, long after the stockings had been filled, and everything for the morning had been prepared…  He waited for us all to be asleep, and escaped the room… peeing strategically all over the house… first the Christmas tree, and then on to the dining room, to mark each of the six chairs that surrounded the table…  I think he was mad at all of us for celebrating the holiday dinner, while he had to be kenneled.  It’s just a guess, though. 

Sshhhh… I cleaned it up and never told my mother in law.

Let us never forget the park incident, either.  This time, though, it was not his fault, poor guy.  It so happened, on another of our occasional breaks from the road, I received an invitation to support my friend, as she gave birth to her first son.  I nicknamed the little tyke Peapod, and I call him that even now… anyway, both Harley and I went to stay with my friend for a bit, after the baby arrived.  She had two of the most adorable little Yorkies, Oliver and Kyra, who was still a pup at that time.  For the most part, Harley was just chillin with Oliver, while Kyra behaved more like the annoying little sister of the group. 

Oliver
Miss Kyra

One afternoon we decided to take the all the doggies to the park, to break their cabin fever that had been suffered, during our 24/7 new baby lifestyle. 

As soon as we closed the gate to the puppy park, we unleashed the hounds, and off they went like a shot… Harley doing his pugtona, while Oliver chased close on his heels with sheer abandon.  In the excitement, poor little Kyra did not know what to do first, chase one dog or the other.  Just about the time she thought the rules of the game were clear, and began to run toward the boys, Harley rounded and came running back toward her in excitement… both running headlong into one another, but with Harley being the big oaf that he was, he bulldozed the tiny Yorkie… sending her flying through the air. 

By the caterwauling that she put on, one would have thought Kyra was dying, and half the park came alive with lookie loos.  Harley stood there with a lost look on his face, and I think Oliver took it upon himself to go pee on several bushes.  Once we put her in the back of the stroller she shut right up and went into feel sorry for herself mode…

Never fear, Kyra turned out to be just fine, but it took another week of her limping when she thought you were watching.  At first, we fell for it hook, line and sinker… but after a week of it, we took her to the vet to be sure, and she was given the all clear.  After that, she only gave Harley dirty looks, but stopped the limping and shaking… I think going to the vet called her bluff, and she didn’t want to go back there again.  After our little adventure in babe land, our gang was back on the road again.

… to be continued…

Can you believe it! I found this picture of Harley from when he was so widdle…

Don’t be sad, ok? I will be here tomorrow to tell the rest of the story. Here are some chocolates for you (not our furry friends) …

Bone Aaa-puh-tee-tay!

I think it is proven that chocolate makes us feel good

Are you kidding???

Daily writing prompt
Scour the news for an entirely uninteresting story. Consider how it connects to your life. Write about that.

You do realize how much “Garbage” I would have to sift through, to even find an uninteresting story… need I remind you that media is behaving more like it is best to get it out there first, rather than correct. That being said, I am now finding myself in a dillemma, as I do NOT read the news, or watch most tv and movies.

Some times, I stay off of these things because of anxiety. I find, for myself, that being stimulated by everybody else’s anger, violence, drama, cruelty, and superficial behavior, stresses me the heck out!

I do not have to read or watch the news, in order to get my information, because my husband and friends all do, and then they talk about it. I can see the tension on their faces and hear the agitation in their voices, as they try to replay the story. They read about it, and see it on the boob tube, but are unable to do anything to make a difference. I guess that is how News connects to my life, never mind an uninteresting story.

And the thought that the media would ever deign to produce a story that has no interest… why would they do that? The world has been groomed to crave adrenaline, seek out action, and wallow in violence in order to happily exist.

Besides that, I am a child of the streets… a casualty of war, you might say… I have seen things, and gone through moments that shaped me into a very Hard person on the surface, but quite fragile beneath all my Armor.

While I cannot scour the news, as the prompt suggested, I can scour the very environment around me for my uninteresting story. One does not have to go far beyond their own front doors, in these times, to see stories unfold right before their eyes… whether it connects to them, is a whole different topic that we don’t have time for today.

So, I will treat you to a brief uninteresting story that I saw unfold, and it really did connect to my life…

I was walking in my local park the other day, to feed my local squirrel kingdom. As I walked the path, I noticed a woman walking the same path, but moving in my direction. I discovered that she was also dropping peanuts for the local wildlife, just as I have done. It encouraged me to see someone else doing a very simple deed, with no one there to pat them on the back. She derives the same pleasure as I do, maybe, from giving food to others.

I may not have much, but a small morsel can go a long way for a tiny creature… Give where you can, when you can, with what you can… even if it is a peanut. Sometimes big things come from small beginnings.

I hope this was enough of an answer for you WordPress. It wasn’t the easiest question to work with, but I did what I could. For everyone who stayed long enough to read this in its entirety, breakfast is on me…

The watermelon is totally in season, so it is super sweet…

Do You Remember…

Part 1 of 3…  Melancholy Girl…    

I have been suffering, of late, from a condition that I refer to as Flurrbyitis. 

Flurrbyitis – The recurring desire to have ones RV become the home of a furry baby and all its’ toys.  The only remedy to this condition is to put oneself up for Furdoption.

When I get to feelin this way, I start thinking of Harley!  I get to missin my Boy!  He was my buddy, my pal, my ole man…

Harley was not just any Pug; he was a pug with my personality!  Funny, a bit stressed out, crazy lookin, and talked all the time… yup, me!  To tell you the story of him, I have to tell it all the way from before he and I met. 

My first pug, Oliver, was stolen right off my porch 2 years prior.  It crushed my heart when I could not find my baby, and I searched for him for a year, with no success.  We then spent another year searching for a new puppy.  When my husband mentioned an ad in the paper, I was not impressed, because my original pug was from Champion bloodlines.  My man always thought outside the box though, so I took his lead, and off we went to look.

Never did I think that I would be encountering Ollie (my first pug) in another’s face, but here we were!  Harley!  But Harley had a brother, a twin in fact, and his name was Busa!  From the moment we saw them, my husband knew I would not be capable of choosing between them.  So, he did the only thing that made sense.  While I sat on the floor in a pug pile, he ran to the nearest ATM.  My man bought both puppies when he got back, taking immediate possession of one, dubbing him Hayabusa, Busa for short.  Their names should show clearly that I love the big loud bikes, and my husband likes to go go go super fast.

It’s funny to remember our boys as the little wrinkled fatso’s that they were in the beginning.  I loved watching them doing pugtonas all over the house, snorting and circling the couch with tongues hanging out… and their sneezes are too just water, so that is my story and I am sticking to it.  If pugs sneeze on you don’t be grossed out… k?  As the boys grew older, it was easier to tell them apart, as Harley had a big fat head, and Busa always ran around with his tail uncurled… the lazy little sod.  Rather than a nice curl on the back, it always looked like a cinnamon roll half way undone, hanging off his hip. 

Harley’s face looked stressed and a bit crazy, while Busa looked high…  all the time…  For twins, these guys were polar opposites!  ADHD vs POTHEAD… Different in all ways, except one… Me! 

Wherever I was, they both needed to be.  The sun, moon, and stars rose and fell on Yours Truly, and I loved it!  When I would sit down, no matter where, these two would go into King of the Mountain mode… literally butt swinging to knock their opponent off my lap.  I became a bedtime burrito, with one fat roll on either side of me (the dogs, not mine), while I slept.

… to be continued… check back tomorrow.

Remember I said that this was a long memory. Well the pug stops here, for today. I did leave some biscuits for you all…

Admit it, you’re not really sure if these are for dogs, or for people… I’ll never tell.

Let’s Hit It…

Daily writing prompt
List 30 things that make you happy.

When I saw the prompt this morning, I was momentarily stumped. I can only be so creative, you know, before coffee even!

But, as I am ever an optimist… and a little crazy too, I have an idea!

Let’s go shopping! Everybody likes to shop, right?

Hop in for a ride

in my crazy mobile…

You won’t have to drive

Cause I am behind the wheel…

No need for a seatbelt

as I will drive real slow….

You should be able to enjoy this ride

With no motion sickness to show…

Let us first stop an the park

To feed squirrels and pick flowers…

Hope you enjoy it here

I come here for hours…

Let us go to the beach

We can swim in the water…

But we can’t stay too long

For the sun gets hotter and hotter…

Oh let’s please stop by a shelter

and lend them a hand…

Who doesn’t love to hold puppies

I wish puppy breath came in a can…

Let us head to the mountains

And camp for a few…

But when the marshmallows are gone

We must leave there too…

Then it’s home again home again

Jiggity jog…

For of the things that make me happy

Always lands with the dogs…

Now let me see if I count 30

In the list of what makes me smile…

If you didn’t count em all

Then you can ponder a while…

Have a cookie while you consider

How I came up with this number…

Of the squirrels, I know of 14

From the old Abbot

Up the ladder to the Acorn King…

There are 3 in the beach, camping, and driving

All those things are gems for me…

The park has flowers of all kinds

I say a dozen, without counting the trees…

Last but not least

Only one thing is left for you to see…

Some soft fluffy mongrel

Would be just perfect for me…

Answers From the Past…

Daily writing prompt
Share a story about the furthest you’ve ever traveled from home.

I found an old post from last spring that I thought rather fitting, if you twist the daily prompt’s meaning just a smidge…

This was one of my ‘Investigating Truths’ episodes, but it seemed fitting, somehow.

For as long as I can remember, I have made sense of myself and this world two realms of thought.  One realm of thought is in the actual and physical sense.  What we see, do, talk about, eat and feel are in the here and now… The second realm of thought is what I think of as my storybook, or cartoon version if you will.  Let’s call this part the “Behind the Scenes of My Truths,” the adventure version. 

What follows is written in storybook version…….

I am wild from the top of my head all the way down to my toes!  It is all that I can seem to remember of myself.  My journeying, or running if I am being truthful, has always found me far out in the desert.  For as long as I can remember, there has been a path worn, from one hidden oasis to another, by my feet.  I have hidden them well, though, so most that wander by are unaware of my presence.  As the years of my life rolled forward, I found that there was One who had been following my footprints, always leaving little packages of love for me.  On one of my journeys along the outskirts of the Cities of Souls, I came to realize that the One whom I had sensed, was in fact my True Father!  It was both joyful and difficult to become aware of Him. 

I stayed…

Before I knew it, time seemed to have sped forward in my journey, by a great many years!  I discovered that I had settled down right inside the walls … building relationships with others, and trying to live and do things the way all of the others thought was right.  My Father showed me the gifts given to me, but instead of being at peace, I became fearful…I believed that I was losing myself, and would simply become a nothing…moving along by habit…so this wild child ran!!!

I fled into the desert with as much speed possible, for my feet had become softened over time.  I tripped many times, stumbling over rocks and debris that had been left on my paths.  Had it really been that long?  I was not sure if the way had become obstructed or if I had simply forgotten my exact path.  Many seasons were spent wandering, clearing out my old and unused paths.  Time rolled on…

Oh, I would come near the outskirts, just close enough to remember what I left behind.  The intensity of my pain and fear, along with the guilt over my failure, drove me away again and again…

My last act of running into the desert, or defiance as I see it, nearly cost me my very life, but that is for another time.  For now, I leave you with this thought…I am still that wild child inside, but my Father has been revealing to me the graceful Phoenix that He is rising up from the ashes of her truth…

You didn’t think I would forget your cookies, did you?

(2016) The Journey!

** I don’t know about anyone else, but I often write letters to God. This was from one of my old journals, I believe. Back when I first started writing on WP, there were a number of posts in which I shared pieces from my prayer journals. This one is a bit rough around the edges, but still worth reading in its original form.**

Prayer Journal Entry November 2016:

“…I will trust you Father.  I choose to trust You. 

I know that You are working for my good.  I know that You love me.  I know that all You ask is that I follow you, that I let You lead me, and to be obedient to You.  If you called me home today, would I be excited or would I be ashamed of my attitude.

I have been asking You to change me and that is what you are doing.  You are constant and unchanging but I am not.  I need to be soft and moldable so that You can shape me into more of Your image…loving, peaceful, patient, kind, gracious, full of mercy, compassionate, gentle, and giving.  You don’t sit in Your Holy Mountain basking in Your own glory and wealth, rather, You are constantly, and forever pursuing Your children, delighting in them, helping them, teaching them, protecting them and blessing them.

You are a mighty God, a jealous God who craves His children’s love and obedience.  You do not want us, Your children, to place anything above You.  I do not wish to love my life so much that  I seek to satisfy my own desires more than I seek to please You.  When I am called home, I will not be bringing a house or car or a bank account full of money.  What I will be bringing with me is my heart and my mind.  My memories come with me, the choices in my life come with me, both the memory of consequences and the memory of blessings and obedience.

I want my heart to be filled with joy and laughter and love, not resentment and self-pity or jealousy.  It’s funny how a suitcase or even a U-Haul has only so much physical space available, but a human heart, small as it is, has the capacity for an endless supply of love and emotion and passion.  I choose to pack my heart for the journey home to you…”