It’s confession time! Maybe you noticed the lack of writing I’ve been doing of late… maybe not, but it has been for a very good reason. Over the past month I’ve been working on writing a book, but not the one you expect. Out of the blue last month, God asked me to set my planned novel aside, so as to finish something I’d been putting off for a while… my story.

Thanks to the repeated daily prompt questions about autobiographies, I realized that I’d been holding onto my unfinished story for far too long. The literary line was drawn, so I crossed over it, re-entering a God driven written story, that has been a long time coming.

As of yesterday afternoon, I’ve been staring at my first full work of writing! It has been exciting, terrifying, nauseating, stressful, blissful, exhausting and so very fulfilling! It is far from being seen on a shelf, I’m sure, but all the content is in there… all 40 some odd thousand words of it!

Now the work begins for this punctuation fairy, as I begin to do a full Audio Recording Editing session. I want to catch any unforeseen errors within the many pages, so listening to myself try to read it out loud, often reveals the problems rather easily. Once that’s done, all that’s left is to print my first copy for my own Poor Mans’ Copyright that I’ll mail to myself. My sweet husband went and found the cash to purchase a printer and some paper, so we keep rolling forward.

The rest is in God’s hands and though I am a ball of emotional energy over putting myself out there, I DID say a whole lot about what God has done, does, and will do… so I better walk the walk!

Never fear, for my main novel is not forgotten! In fact, it’s nearly two thirds of the way done, and beings that my mind is like a steel trap, there’s no chance that I will lose track of the finish line for that story. The thing I’ve told you from the beginning, was God ‘s instruction to me through all the struggle… just write! So I wrote! Now I have to finish what He encouraged me to start… all 5 books that I’ve been sitting on need to be completed, as they’re no good to anyone by simply sitting in files.

There is no telling, as to whether God will provide the funds for self-publishing or bring forth an Agent to assist in navigating the publishing world, but my husband is helping me researching both, as it is a bit daunting either way. Did you know that one book needs up to 5 separate USBN numbers for all the differing forms of releasing it? Ouch! But I serve a pretty big God, so I know things will go as He plans. This book is either hitting the shelves with God’s fingerprints all over it… or it can sit in the closet on a shelf, as far as I’m concerned.

While I realize that many people enjoy the electronic version for their reader apps, I feel rather strongly in the old school hardbound copy in ones hand, so we’ll do all 5 versions. My plan for the Audio version is to use my own voice, as it is my story, so I’m praying that whomever the publisher ends up being, they will at least listen to some recordings of my own voice for quality… I think I have a pretty good reading voice.

If I’m being completely honest with you, I do not fear people reading my goods, bads, and uglies… I struggle with the fear of not being capable of writing like the big dogs… silly, right? I also sometimes feel a bit like a drama queen, either oversharing or offending someone… I have insecurities just like everyone else does!

Oh well… there’s nothing to do but walk forward in faith towards that which I cannot see, but I believe is the path leading home…