While you might think it is silly for me to give you a play by play of several procedures that are done everyday, never fear because I’ve no intention of being boring!

Something I discovered about anxiety … it takes no prisoners! What I want and think about the things I am experiencing, have no impact on how anxiety will respond to certain situations. I am a lifer… an anxiety recipient that received said package without even a bow on top of the box. Sure it has many labels NOW, but not back then it didn’t!

Another thing about anxiety is, it loves routine, it loves its safe places, and as it happens, my little wolverine in a box loves to be pacified! If I provide it with a toy, in essence, it will come along with me happily, as I tackle things that it doesn’t like… I have a list!

I don’t like being physically touched!

Now I know you may be thinking that a silly thing, or maybe even wondering how on earth a simple touch can cause such a bad reaction? When you figure it out, let me know so I can let anxiety get the update. While I can choose to be touched physically when I am in my safe place, or by those whom I know and trust… all bets are off when it comes to anything outside my safe zone!

In order to function and live a healthy daily life, while bearing the over-the-top self preservation behaviors, I figured out a secret… wanna know?

Laughter!

My chatty side comes on board and I begin to make light of as many things about my circumstances as possible, in hopes of bringing a friendly smile to others faces… you know, the ones I want to run from if they plan on poking this scared girl who is hiding inside a woman’s body.

While I know that my health is important and needs caring for… I don’t like it one bit!

Sooooooooo…. long story short, I will coach myself through my upcoming procedures with really bad jokes, a great amount of whining for attention, and ROUTINE! That is where you’ll be vitally important to my success! Just the act of returning daily to my writing platform and my favorite community will help my anxiety feel like cooperating.

You might see a funny picture, or my version of a twisted joke that I found funny. As this is all done off the cuff for the next several weeks, I have no guarantees of anything valuable inspiring my typing fingers… and some days only one available eye. If nothing else, I will leave some cookies.

Here, have one…