There are gonna be those days..

We all have them, you know, those days when we lose our temper, saying or doing somethings that is less than what we are proud of, less than what we want to be remembered by.

Rather than make you squirm, I am more than willing to display my own dysfunctional antics, if it brings encouragement to somebody else along the highway of life lessons.

Todays Note to Self #11 is a well known phrase we should all have heard many times already…

If you are gonna Talk the Talk,

Be prepared to Walk the Walk!

I have no idea where I originally heard this from, and have no intention of figuring it out, as it doesn’t really matter. I get to say that because it is my dirty laundry I am airing, so I do it the way I want.

As the daughter of the Most High King, I have a duty and an obligation to uphold His standards of things, but sometimes things happen that bring out our not so Godly human nature. For me, it doesn’t happen that often, but when it does… oh baby! This was the reason I made sure to include a Note to Self on the subject. It’s going to happen for everyone, at some point, so let’s just put it on the table to work with, instead of sweeping it under the living room carpet. Trust me, eventually you will start tripping over the rug if all your human nature is stored underneath.

I will now briefly share an example of a not so fine walk to compare to the talk that comes out of my mouth… why, because I am human and I think you should understand why I put this note to self in here… Balance…

My lack of vision has been something you may have read about recently, but for me this has been ongoing for a good bit now. I was unaware of how stressful this has been on my body, mind and spirit, until the other day. While out with my husband running errands, we ended up in a Safeway parking lot with him looking up directions and me having a full on panic attack. It was awful, and I actually found myself screaming profanities at an unsuspecting construction worker blocking our path out of the parking lot. Not kidding… I full on went Truckers Wife on him and it was not pretty.

After all was said and done, I felt like the biggest Jesus Faker out there… what if I were to run into this young man and his family in the grocery line, or a doctors office or something? I had three servings of humble pie for dinner that night, with a late night dessert of humiliating guilt that gave me a gut ache til morning.

Here is the funny thing about that situation and the entire Note to Self list… Life will be filled with those situations, and I put the #11 Note together long before last week. I knew I would need the reminder, and not in the way you might think. When I read this particular note, it does not leave me feeling guilty over things, but rather, free to get up, dust myself off, and help myself to the All You Can Eat Buffet of Gods Eternal Grace for this daughter of His!

I am so grateful that Jesus did the actual perfect Walk and Talk, so I just need to keep following His walk and I will be just fine…