Life itself was my most influential teacher! Why? Because it kicked my can around town for so many of my growing up years, that’s why! I’ve yet to meet an actual earth creature that truly influenced me, more than me just trying to navigate a world that has no safety net for the lost ones!
Don’t get me wrong, as there were plenty of people in and around my life to influence me, to an extent. Since most of them were very negative influences, as well as being very unhealthy and/or cruel, I will go as far as to say, they get some of the credit for how I got here… I just don’t think that it’s fair to give them the whole price tag for how I turned out.
God alone is my only true lifelong influence… otherwise, I wouldn’t be here writing this prompt answer today!
With that being said, I’m off to continue my week of self-imposed vacation… ta ta for now…
You didn’t think that I would forget your cookies…
Yes, I’m in my pajamas while chasing down monsters in a fictitious forest! I take one day at a time, living the life set before me with a steady pace. Whatever God sets before me to do… I do it!
Right now, that means playing video games with my husband in our pajamas folks!
I don’t make wishes anymore, but I DO have a hope and a future…
Of all the species of feathered flyers out there, the one bird that describes me would be the Woodpecker! Why? Well, I read off of the Wikipedia site that these birds have very strong jaw muscles.
Anyone who knows much about me, should already be aware that I talk a whole lot! I mean A LOT! I always have… and I highly doubt that I will be slowing down any time soon. Over the years I have been chided about it, counseled to slow it down, and/or even avoided because of it. For a time, I attempted to back away from my own chatty nature, in hopes of pleasing others. I soon learned that it was more my personality than my chattiness that pushed others away. When I discovered that I like myself just as I am, I stopped trying to be that which I was not, for others sake!
I like being a Woodpecker, incessantly hammering out the love of Christ, over and over and over again! For anyone who is bothered by my noise, there are plenty of other trees in the forest! God made me this way, so I’ve no intention of changing something if it’s not broken! Just sayin…
Honesty is always the best policy, and I’d like to be as forthright in my answer as possible. I cannot actually come up with any compliments, from off the top of my head. I’ve not lived a life that taught me how to recognize this thing we call a compliment. I have not lived a life that offered any humans that cared to offer any great words of affirmation toward much, if any, of my behavior or character… it’s actually been quite the opposite!
Oh, I’m sure that I’ve been offered positive comments here and there, but none have ever felt either sincere or useful enough to carry me to any great height… I’m just being completely honest!
Nothing my parents ever said, came with a behavior that backed up the words draining out of their mouths!
I had a great many men drip words of insincerity in my direction, with nothing more than selfish or nefarious purposes in their minds!
There was no one to push me into any academic or career direction, with words that might lead me to believe that I was smart in any form!
My entire life has been a fight, pushing against adversity from every single direction I looked! I was discouraged from having children, but I did it anyway! I raised three daughters, served in the church til I bled, homeschooled my girls while simultaneously working side jobs housekeeping, and getting a college degree… while cooking, cleaning, paying bills, and serving in a miserable marriage for 16 years. When I divorced… the only reverberating words offered by friends, family AND church was… “well, you left!”
For anyone who may have offered a compliment to my person, I thank you for your kindness. I apologize if I’ve not shown any gratitude for said compliments, but I stopped expecting or even looking for them when I was eleven!
I don’t wish for you to think me bitter, as I’ve moved away from that place of loneliness and sorrow. In honesty, I’ve only one compliment that would be worth anything and everything, but alas, I’m not home yet!
With whatever time I have left on this earth, I shall strive to live a life worthy of my Gods approval, to the best of my ability . My heart yearns to hear the only words that will matter… Well Done My Good and Faithful Servant! Just sayin…
Personally, I would like to put in a request for one of those magic elevators like Willy Wonka owned!
It’s Sunday… the sun is shining in glorious warmth… I shall take my leave, to carry my cabin fever caboose out onto the trail nearby. For today, my cross-country trip is only 2 miles away, so I’ll be using my feet for mode of travel. The river is absolutely lovely right now, as the spring rains have it flowing high on its banks. I caught a glimpse of a duck floating in a sheltered pocket yesterday, so I’m going back today, hoping to see if she has any wee ones hidden in the reeds. Maybe I’ll get lucky and catch a picture of them, if I’m stealthy enough to approach within camera shot… wish me luck!
In my humble opinion, I believe that the most confident person I can think of, would be anyone willing to carry the word of God out into the darkness.
While I have no confidence in myself, nor any other human that walks this earth, as none of us has shown anything I’m willing to write home about, I do hold complete confidence in the ONE who does have all the power… He has overcome the world, you know!
The world offers many different strategies for coping with ones negative feelings, some choosing a therapist, while others choose meditation, music or any other form of relaxation one might find effective in the battle against the blues.
In my case, the therapist would themselves need therapy after I unload my struggles, and my brain is often running in overdrive, leaving meditation at the nearest rest stop. While I do listen to music every day as a part of my unbluing regime, the only true form of strategy I actively employ for wrangling any negative feelings, is writing!
You may be asking, what about prayer or reading Gods word? If you have fully read ANY of my writings, I pray it would be blatantly obvious, as to how much prayer and study time that went into the words found on the pages. If I’m not in constant prayer and continuously renewing my mind in God’s word, there would not be a writing for you to read, if that makes any sense.
I pray to my Creator, I read the living scripture He’s given me, and I speak His name as often as I can. This is done through my writing, as I do not happen upon actual people, from day to day, so my out loud conversations are usually only with HIM!
Why does this work so well for me, you ask? Well, many of my negative feelings actually come from loneliness and isolation, that’s why! Personally, no therapist can help here, unless they wish to become my friend and visit with some regularity… that means being my friend without getting paid for the effort!
At the heart of everything, the cause of anyone needing to have any strategies for coping with negative feelings… is not feeling loved! I’ve written time and again how important love is and how it should work. Again, I’m hoping you saw my operative word up above… I started that sentence with my own coping mechanism… I write. Writing not only helps me, but others as well, because every time I write for you, I’m trying to give you my love!
Whatever strategy you choose for your own coping with negative feelings, you’ll know it’s the right one for you, if it bears fruit in your life, as well as those you encounter!
There was a time that I could lose myself in my children, my crafts, my pets, camping, church… and friends.
Times changed, however, bringing circumstances and life interruptus’ that, in one way or another, robbed me of the entire lot!
I will always cherish the memories, treasuring each and every moment of love given and time spent… but life goes on, and as they say, time waits for no man, or woman for that matter!
Admittedly, at no point in all those years did I fully walk with God!
That has changed… thanks be to the grace offered by my heavenly father.
Currently, my days are filled with walks along the river, as I listen to music and fellowship with Him. I lose myself for hours in study of His written word, seeking the lifegiving wisdom within its pages. When I work on any of my literary work, I can easily forget to stop and eat, or even drink a full cup of coffee before it gets cold. It is normal for me to re-heat my coffee or tea repeatedly, before drinking the whole cup. My hubby actually has begun tapping me on the shoulder when I’ve gone too long without eating or drinking.
I believe that though we live day to day with very little, in terms of material things, I feel rather blessed with all the time God spends in molding this vessel. Thankfully, I’m so very lost in HIM, that there is nowhere else that I would rather be found…