Misery Loves Company…

Wiwohka

So, here we are…

Day 4…

Ladies and Gentlemen, I still can’t sit in a chair… let alone, move very far from the bed.

But, I can move slowly and carefully, with slow being the operative word! 

In terms of progress and recovery, I’m getting there… even if it isn’t as quickly as I’d like for it to be.  One would think that all the downtime would be welcomed rather than rejected.  If I want downtime, it would be preferable if I had it on some sunny beach, with a fruity drink in my hand… not trapped in bed.  The thing is, I do NOT like being helpless… it freaks me out! 

I lay here all day feeling a mix of panic, frustration, guilt, and self-shaming over my own weakness.  Yes, this woman of God still has pity parties and panic attacks!  I think it simply comes from lack of sleep and being in pain for an extended period of time. Spirit, mind, and body work together to balance me out… and the body part is just offline at the moment, that’s all!

This girl has to show herself some grace, exercise her faith … and be at peace with her own fragility…

Thanks for listening,  my friends 🧡

The truth of things is this, I got a bad back… have had for a number of years.  While this has to be the first time my low back has gone out this bad, and for this long, once I get the pain and swelling down, things should balance out.  Here’s where it gets tricky!  While trying to manage pain from an injury, I have to deal with responses from both my Fibromayalgia and IBS.  Fibro is lit up from laying in bed for so long without moving, and IBS has destroyed my ability to consume nsaids without my stomach starting to bleed.  YAY!

I took an Ibuprofen for the first time in two years, this morning.  I’m hoping I can get away with it just this once without too much trouble.  I am eternally grateful for my Lidocaine patches, or else I’d have gone to the hospital by now.  Actually, what I’m currently doing is probably the very thing the hospital would offer, aside from an x-ray that’ll most likely show that yes, I have arthritis there, and yes, I’ve probably herniated the disc from coughing, of all things.

If I can spend 4 days arguing with myself about whether or not to do a hospital visit… it isn’t an emergency!  As long as I can see some improvement, even if it’s only a bit, I’ll resume my medical care after we resolve this homeless thing…

One thing at a time, right?

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  3. Lower back pain is a curse. I’ve been literally disabled due to a fall on my but two months ago and I am still in misery. If you’re not healing, bite the bullet and go to the hospital or, as I did, see a spine specialist.

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    1. Cinderellas dwarves could whistle while they worked, as you well know, but people can now say that you’re known for whittling while you hurt… lol! All I’ve done thus far is whine while I recline… hehehe. I’m getting looper with each passing day. Actually, I slept all night without waking every time I moved, so that’s a big improvement… hugs

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