I feel rather unusual this week, a bit distracted from much of what I normally do. As we await word , regarding the application we submitted on our apartment, I’ve tried to occupy my mind with finishing my book. I ended up just diving into that project, and I finished it on Tuesday.

Now that the first book is zipped up, I can get back to my Fantasy/Fiction novel project. I left it sitting on the sidelines for the last few months, as I completed something I feel God called me to do. Numerous times, I felt like setting my memoirs aside, to chase after a literary passion that continues to call to me in dreams. I stayed the course though, feeling confident that the dream would not fade for me… and it has not! Now, I’m one done, and off to follow a dragon!

Fortunately, as far as waiting for an approval or denial of our application, I’ve not been plagued by anxiety or sleepless nights, the way I have been in the past. Perhaps it’s due to the knowledge that there will be challenges and obstacles to overcome, regardless of the outcome of this one decision. When you exist in survival mode for extended periods of time, the brain goes numb, in a way! One day brings plumbing problems, while another day brings challenges ranging anywhere from fuel for the car, to waiting for the food stamp card to reload. Timing is everything!

I will say that for me, reading the bible each day, even if only for a few moments, has been a huge game changer! All I know is, reading scripture brings me comfort and reassurance, no matter the situation… it just does. I do not wish to camp on worry and doubts, when I’m forever being reminded of God’s providence, in all things. Too bad this wasn’t my go-to, all those panic attack’s earlier!

Nowadays, I’m learning a deeper understanding of our journey, regarding how spiritual growth occurs in ones life. It never happens by accident! I love the way the bible uses a baby to explain the growth of a believer, as far as going from milk to solid food; a baby has to be taught how to switch from one to the other. Timing is everything!

Just like a baby, faith has to be grown, similar to tending a garden! Both examples need time, care, and practice; no one gets things perfectly the first time out the gate! Babies don’t wean off milk over time, nor does a seed sprout up and bear fruit in just one day. Mistakes, bad choices, circumstances all accompany both a baby and a seed, as they grow toward the son/sun!

It may have taken me 55 years to figure it out, but I think maybe I’m learning…