I needed my walk this morning, more than I care to admit!  I have been struggling, of late, with my attitude…a lot!  How can a chosen woman of God ever have a bad attitude, you ask?  Very easily, just so that you know.  I wrote a piece the other day, in which I mention the fact that I am the founder, leader and main audience member of Overthinkers Anonymous!  Guess what?  Also on my Christian resume, is my professional grade skill as a Feelsorryformyselfer!!

  Yep!  I am especially proficient in self-pity, the blame game, wallowing and good old fashioned poo flinging!  There is nothing I hate more, than when I hear God laughing at my wallowing or poo flinging, as it was meant to get Him to fix things, not entertain Him!  Then, there is nothing I love more, than when He scoops me up into His lap, and calms me…not with harsh recriminations, that I am sure I should receive based on my attitude…but rather, He reminds me of the home He is preparing for me, and He promises me, softly, that He will be right there with me no matter what!  He’s got me!

 Not that you were wondering, but if you were, the reason I walk 6 miles a day, is not for the calorie burn…it’s for the tension burn!  I get out on the trail and I push myself to the point of exhaustion so that I can get my mind to shut up and listen!  I am the animal equivalent of a wolverine in the body of a loud mouth frog!  Let that form a picture in your mind…lol!  During these walks I can go from worship to arguing with God in a hot flash!  That is why God is literally the only one who can fully handle me, because it might be wise to give me a wide berth when I struggle, as I wear my emotions openly and sometimes it aint pretty!

 People, as a whole, get pretty uncomfortable around me on a regular basis, due to my emotional maelstroms.  I get it!  I am a lot!  But apparently, God loves this about me, as he has yet to demand that I shut up!  Point in fact, I think that is why God loves it when I write as much as I want to talk.  Every single one of us has a gift to manage throughout their journey, one that needs to be developed and perfected as much as one can. I believe that every human soul has a unique gift, as well as a weakness. 

Yup! I believe in checks and balances!  God wants each of us to recognize our gift, or what makes us so special, but he tempers it with allowing us a weakness, so as to remind us that, though we think we are so capable, the gifted part of us Only comes from Him!  So long story short, I needed this walk more than I like to admit, because my attitude was affecting my gift, or the way I write, if you were.  God wore me out enough let go of the attitude, and remember the depth of His love for me, and how He has a purpose, even when I cannot see it!