I was going back through some of the things I first wrote when beginning this blog back in 2016… It is such a strange feeling when you read something you yourself have written, and recognize some but not all of it. So much has changed in and around my life since that time…

Thought I would share and see what your take is…

2016

“Bless the Lord, oh my soul, and forget not all His benefits: who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction, who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies.”     Psalms 103:2-4

It is so easy to feel sorry for myself and look at how crappy and miserable my situation is.  Thinking on all the things I do not have fills my heart and mind with a desire to just quit trying, quit praying, and wait for the next punch in the face that life seems to keep offering. 

After sitting a good while in my puddle of self-pity and loathing, I hear a soft whisper… just a whisper, and  it causes me to look up and see what’s interrupting my childish fit…

I look back down at myself to get back to my wallowing, and I hear it again…a gentle breeze floats across my face, cool and fragrant.  How can I feel sorry for myself with these constant interruptions…

It’s not my fault that my life is so miserable, I deserve so much better,  how come everyone else has so much more than I do…”My Child”…there it is again, that whisper…

“Am I not enough for you”? 

There it is, that one thing that makes sense to me…

  When my time on earth is over, am I gonna pack up all my things to drag them up to heaven with me?  I realize that all the things I thought were so important will simply fall to dust when I am called home.  What will remain are the choices I made with what was given to me.  I was given six beautiful children, and to date 3 grandbabies with a fourth almost here, and a loving husband and his family.  I realize that  when I am so busy looking at myself and what I don’t have, I am missing all of the good things right in front of me.  God is right there before me, holding out His hand to lift me up and carry me through troubled waters. 

He loves me, comforts me, laughs with me, and cries with me.  When I look to the Father, who pursues me always, I remember His truths, and His promises to me, His child, and I can see clearly all of the times He has worked mightily in my life. Now I can answer back to Him…yes Lord, You are enough for me…