You know sometimes there are just those days…you know, the ones where we want to just get back in bed under the covers and try to fall asleep again, hoping that when you wake up things will look better.  It isn’t the weather…in actuality, it’s sunny outside and quite beautiful.  It isn’t that I feel sick…in fact, I went for an amazing walk and didn’t even need a hat. 

There are just those days where I think, Lord, why does every single thing in life have to be so infuriatingly difficult?  I exhaust my brain trying to ascertain if it is I that makes it hard or if it just is…am I just feeling sorry for myself or not, are my expectations of myself and God too unrealistic…wait, was there onions in my dinner last night??  ***Note to self…don’t eat dinner late, and if you do, absolutely NO Onions!!  Trust me, you will regret it in the morning girl…

I think that a lot of times I think too much, and it is maybe just what I ate…lol.  Sometimes, though, maybe it is a good thing to mentally get back into bed for a reset!  We have to realize that there are going to just be days, where nothing makes sense, and its ok!  That is what I think I might be learning, finally!  It is days such as these in which I can put into practice the Faith that I’m always talking about.  It is often the difficult times that teach us where our faith is! 

Everyone knows how much easier it is to be lighthearted and easygoing when things are all perfect, but throw a bit of life in the mix and it’s not so easy.  I have struggled so much in my life with fear verses faith, it is laughable, as I carry on about how big I know God is. 

Whenever I have one of Those days, I came up with a little repeatable pep talk for myself and I thought you might enjoy hearing how I get out of my funk.  Here goes, 

“Welcome Everyone To Overthinkers Anonymous!  My name is Toni and I am an overthinker!”

Hi Toni

“For anyone wishing to join, we meet here every night, usually as soon as you get tired.  Be sure NOT to bring anything to take notes so you can relax…no no…here at overthinkers anonymous, we like to use up as much of your sleep time with absolutely every single thing that you have no control over.  Oh yeah, and also we like to obsess about things we really only think might happen…they probably won’t happen, but we here at overthinkers anonymous strive to ensure that you will worry over them anyway!”

For some reason nobody ever joined my late-night club…lol…Sometimes, I just think tooooooooooo much! 

The reason I share this is not to put myself down, because I am the way that I am, no shame!  But if someone that reads this story is perhaps secretly an overthinker, well, I wanted to say that its ok!  There is not a thing wrong with you!  Sometimes Life is just really tough, but remember that sometimes you just shouldn’t eat onions with dinner…lol… and I pray you and I would show ourselves some grace.